its the second month today but you disappoint me a lot when i saw that very message from the other party. you asked me not to but you dint practice what you preached and even did it behind my back. whether are you telling the truth or not when you told me you dint even meet the other party before, i still believed you because i see no reason in not doing so. i trusted you to the max but you betrayed my trust for you. i know i dont have that great authority to stop you from seeing anybody but i dont know if you feel the guilt there. i cried, and no matter how many times you attempted to come near me, i'll just push you away. you apologised and explained things with tears welling up in your eyes, this is when i know you're deeply hurt.. and yes, i forgive you. (:

it is the "second day" today, you said you wanted "365days", i hope you'll fulfil that promise. :D and also the promise that you gave me about the other party, everything will be gone in three words if it happens again. (:

anyway, good job for today's PA race guys, im sure y'all gave it all out. (: look forward and aim for River Regatta races! :D

farted @ 11:55 PM


a fun laughing evening. ^^

1st incident
camp focus camp committee meeting at school macs today. poor mark was in the conversation with eve & rachel but those two ladies were so engrossed in chatting till they dont even realised mark was actually talking to them. that poor guy was doing whatever he can with all the actions & words to catch their attention yet he failed to do so, same applies for alvin. i pity the guys in the camp focus camp committee: no ladies pay attention to them talking. hahahahaha. :D:D:D

2nd incident
a couple was smooching & frenching in the macs canteen. upon noticing it, told eve & rachel. rachel stood up, pointed & shouted,"hello excuse me!" the couple stopped for a few seconds & continued, without feeling the embarrassment. within seconds, the whole group of us were laughing out loud over rachel's reaction over the couple's smooching & frenching in the canteen.

finally, the couple stopped when many were staring, walked out of the canteen hand in hand, probably off to another round of making out somewhere in the school. insane people. doing it in private or out of school is fine, but making out in the school canteen, its not like in the dramas where you smooch & people start applauding for you. gross. EEEK.

3rd incident
at yck mrt station.

shilong to eve: why is your towel in red? you'd have it in white so that you can surrender.
- eve stoned -
alan: winter is coming.

alan guy, never fail to make me laugh till i tear.

those people are funny, camp focus is another camp to look forward to with these people around. (:

yay. alvin got through the selection round for 'Hey Gorgeous!" rather than somebody else. happy for him though. :D

my mom likes linkin park & madonna. kinda amazed though as she usually thinks that the music that i listen are noise. think my mom & haslinda's mom goes pretty well together when comes to fashion sense. dont you think so haslinda? (:

nurul's stepping down soon & am feeling rather sad over it although i know she has to leave sooner or later, just that the matter of when. really gonna miss her, truck loads. i hope she doesnt end up like xan: disappearing, quit without people knowing. my heart will just break into pieces lah.

zac fell sick & his tap is running non-stop. that bitch, better get well soon or i'll have one less person to bitch to. :D

eve's obsessed with bubble tea: blow a bubble & give her tea - FWA-LA!

these people, definitely makes my life goes round & round & even more wild & fun. (:

farted @ 11:37 PM


YAY! the very first DB camp is over. :D:D:D

tonnes of fun i had at the camp last weekend, especially with the camp committee. thanks for the wonderful memories guys - mike, changlong, nurul, haslinda, chris, kwangli, joshua, leon, tisa, lincoln & sevin. :D i pity mike a lot actually, the person who always have to tolerate all the shit from us. anything we need to confirm? ask mike. anything that is missing? ask mike. what happens next? mike. everything is just mike mike mike.. poor guy. but i still love him, & of course the camp committee people. (:

slept for 1hr10mins throughout the 3days camp - but everything was worth it because things were going on smoothly. some people got me really pissed that really makes me feel like bitch slapping them but i dont have the right to do so.

discipline wasnt enforced during the camp but things arent that bad either. :D to think that we camp committee only took a month plus to plan for this camp, it isnt so bad already right? (: feedback so far was the camp's fun & a sense of satisfaction for that. :D

enjoyed chatting with haslinda late at night about our observations of certain people. it feels great to share the same thinkings with someone, especially when you're feeling the anger in you when people dont listen to you & stepping all over your head, showing no respect.

imbeciles. -.-

today
my daddy went for doctor's appointment regarding his toe again. what did the doctor say? "there's nothing with your toe, come back for appointment next month". those doctors are PLAIN STUPID. if there's nothing wrong with the toe, it wont be bleeding for no reason. if there's nothing wrong the toe, there wont a hole in the skin. whats with these people? they kept saying that there is nothing wrong & asked my dad to go back for appointment again. for hell sake, he's DIABETIC, cant they do anything about it? gosh. it's like throwing money away when they arent doing anything to the bleeding toe. im trying to persuade my dad to go to another hospital to seek medical attention instead since this hospital isnt doing anything about it.

WHO IS THE KING OF THE JUNGLE?
WHO, WHO?
WHO IS THE KING OF THE SEA?
LALALALA.
WHO IS THE KING OF THE DB CAMP, THE JUNGLE AND THE SEA?
LALALALA.
CAMP COMM, CAMP COMM.
CAMP COMM IS THE KING.
WE ARE THE KING OF THE DB CAMP, THE JUNGLE AND THE SEA.
LALALALA.

& I LOVE RETRO NIGHT!

:D:D:D

everyone who fell sick, please get well soon & come back for training! (:

farted @ 11:34 PM


staying over at school for camp preparation with the camp committee last weekend was filled with fun although all of us were really tired having to go through the night with mere few hours of sleep & training before that. they've definitely made my day & definitely looking forward to the camp with them around. (:

i love them. <3

things happened during on saturday. whatever it is, i hope the girls (& probably guys) will take precaution now. scream/shout for help if you see anything suspicious above/below your cubicle. lucky for that guy, he got away scot-free. people aint happy about it but we cant do anything about it either, it was coach's decision. that guy has tarnished the reputation of his school, too bad for them now.

just beware alright? (:

with fitness getting so horrible, im really determined to get myself moving & achieving better.
"it is not whether you can or not, it is whether you want it or not" - yes, & i will work towards that.
was really disappointed when people were asking me "what happen to you?", the only thing i'd answer them was "i really dont know".

the snake babies arent getting very good days this year, especially for me & eve. i dont know about others but i hope they dont get very much bad days as us.

no matter what, a big THANK YOU to 'my family' who made me day whenever im having a shitty day. (:

farted @ 1:38 AM



if i were to die, i would want to die in my sleep. peaceful & painless; family members dont have to see me suffering from all the pain & agony that i get from whatever illness that im dying from.

grand-aunt was cremated today. a woman who had problems within her family, having children who dont really bother about her, having a child who is abnormal & mixing around with bad company, having a child who have financial burdens & a daughter-in-law who is against her, a woman with no complaints in whichever way her children treated her. sitting around the hawker centre observing people is how she passes her time every single day but people have to chase her away because they do not like her sitting around the place. below knee amputation had already left her devastated yet she can dont breathe a word of complaint about her children, her condition or about herself to anybody. i take my hats off her, really.

upon her death, her own sister was digging through her valuables wanting to own them. funeral everyday not having more than 5 tables occupied, family members having to worry over the financial crisis that they're facing to pay for the funeral service itself.

a woman who always seems so cheery with no complaints having such a story behind her smiles. dying in her sleep is a good too, she passed on in peace, no need to have her family members having to panic & quarrel over financial burdens.

i really sympathize her. ):

sitting at the funeral up till 2am listening to my grand-uncle telling his taxi driving stories & his past experience is a very eerie thing to be doing. i'll start having nightmares. -.-

farted @ 10:53 PM


sentosa-ed with those dears on wednesday. it was total fun. (: it was 'eve's day' anyway, she almost vomit blood. HAHA. poor girl. & haslinda's phone had a good bath, causing it to go screwed.

bathing Q in the toilet dint even moved for freaking TEN MINUTES. like what haslinda & i was talking about: typical girls who takes FOREVER to bathe, dress up, etc. many girls ended up bathing using the showerhead outside, which includes me & haslinda. -.-

all of us were really unlucky that day, to see the person we dint want to, THREE BLOODY TIMES IN A DAY. all the person does was stare stare stare & EVEN MORE STARING. how i wish i'd just gouge the person's eyes out on the spot & throw it on the floor. annoying. went J8 & was unlucky again. buy TOTO & 4D also not that lucky. -.-

camp committee meeting yesterday lasted for almost 4hours. from what tisa lincoln haslinda & joshua is planning, it sounds really fun & im kinda excited for it. its really a sense of satisfaction when everything goes on smoothly during a camp.

BUT I HOPE PEOPLE WILL APPRECIATE THINGS THAT WE'VE DONE, they better do or i'll bitch slap their faces. (: planning isnt easy, we're not procrastinators like some others. :D it was 'lincoln's day' yesterday anyway. his whole face was monkey-ass-red as quoted by joshua & he was almost on the verge of vomiting blood while talking to all of us. poor guy. :D

catherine came over to toapayoh for lunch yesterday. overall rating: it was worth it. SEE HOW MUCH GOOD FOOD TOAPAYOH HAS. SO PLEASE COME HERE. HAHA. xD





all these photos are a result of not sleeping in the middle of the night.

my mom is putting the blame on me when she shrank in height. WHATEVER FOR SHE'S BLAMING ME?! i only wanted 1cm more but i overshot by another 2cm. maybe i'd donate my height to her. HAHA. my dad is like shrinking too! he seems kinda.. shorter than me now. im like some tall monster in the family.

whatever it is, i think my parents are having signs of osteoporosis, from what i've read from a brochure. im encouraging them to have more calcium intake & less protein intake. :/

im going for 2-star kayaking course soon! i know nuts about rescuing & all cos i've clean forgotten about it. the dumb things i cant do: i cant come out on the correct side when capsized, i always forgot to tap the bottom of the kayak. i think i've forgotten the whole procedure on rescuing. HAHA! its been ages that i've touched on rescuing, i only kayak & nothing else. :D:D:D

stupid. ^^

YAY. NURUL'S BACK. :D:D:D

farted @ 4:41 PM


its amazing how my mom can pee without having to put the toilet seat down like any other ladies. i cant pee without having to put the toilet seat down because i'll have this feeling that i might drop into the toilet bowl although my ass is like HUGE enough to cover the whole toilet bowl. :D:D:D

yesterday
last minute changes in plan from haslinda. met up at toapayoh central. lunched, shopped, fun. (:

hdb hub gallery was actually a boring place but i dint know there can be so much fun with haslinda around to that place. pictures, fooling around, embarrassing ourselves, everything. :D

anthony's gonna be back on wee hours of morn on thurs, nurul's gonna be back on friday. haslinda & zac are gonna be thrilled when they're back. (: those two sillies had been suffering from withdrawal symptoms for a few days when they arent around.

today
dad had an appointment today. the doctor still couldnt find out whats wrong with his toe. he just uses his eye power to come up with a conclusion,"there's nothing wrong with your toe." he dint bother to touch, squeeze the wound. it is also really annoying when he speaks really fast & soft, then stare blankly into my dad's face to expect an answer when we already said,"err. excuse me?" my dad got referred from A&E Department to Orthopedics Department to some feet specialist. irritating? ABSOLUTELY. im supposed to be understanding, but i cant be. -.-

that doctor should just go for mouth expansion to expand his mouth so that he can open his mouth wider when talking so that he wont sound like he's mumbling & perhaps some speech therapy too to make him speak better, clearer & definitely slower for his patients to catch his words.

the appointment for the feet specialist is 3 months later from now - "sorry, we cant give you an earlier date because its fully booked." WHY IN THE HELL DO THEY NEED 3 FUCKING MONTHS TO GET THINGS DONE. slow working hospital or what? -.- the antibiotics given will only last my dad for 1week when the next appointment is a month later. does the doctor knows whats the difference between ONE MONTH & ONE WEEK? probably he needs to go back to the kindergarten & re-learn. besides, my dad is DIABETIC. diabetes make things even more worrying than anything else when there's a wound. whats with all these people. ROAR.

anyway, pictures. (:
ugly fake identitya station where we can check our own blood pressurebut the fucking machine is spoilt. it gave that reading. HAHAHA. is haslinda human? :Xpins of towers at the entrancea dead end dooran ahpek's bicycleshe's talking bad about me to the statues!yes, may i help you?this was the lift which supposed to take us to the 50th storey! but we realised that we're still at the same level, just that the door opened the other side. HAHAHAHA. i still love behaving like some imbeciles with this woman with all the unglamorous & embarrassing moments. (:

sunday
it was meant to be shopping for father's day gift at army market, hoping to find something interesting to buy for our dads. but we ended up buying GLITTERY HAIRCLIPS. :D:D:D

this is what happens when girls supposed to go window shopping or shopping for the correct things: we buy something that we're not supposed to. :D

sentosa tomorrow, very much looking forward to it. :D

farted @ 10:57 PM


i always have this mentality & thinking that i'll probably roll down the stairs when i go down the stairs.
HAHAHAHA. STUPID. :D:D:D

rain rain rain today! cool weather to be training in. WOOHOOO. great training today, coach dont look as pissed anymore. hopefully more trainings like today - you happy, i happy, coach happy, everyone's happy. no more grumpiness. (:

lunched at Marina LJS, window shopped, company of zac for his haircut, HOMED. (:

sad to receive the news of two beloved team mates leaving the team: bong & sufyan
definitely gonna miss them. those fun times we had, will be kept locked in my memories. (:

thanks y'all who made my day today :D

HAPPY ADVANCED FATHER'S DAY TO:
- CHANGLONG
- MIKE
- BONG
- KELVIN
& of course, my own daddy (:

threesome!self-entertainment?HAHA, ANJU'S FACE!smiley grinny
3 blisters + 2 scraped knees = HAHA.
2-star kayak course, HERE I COMEEEEE~

farted @ 11:55 PM


something struck me today: do i really have true friends? i cant help but ponder over that question, its stuck in my mind. i feel everyone's so far away from me now, or am i the one who is going away further from them. friends whom once i thought i'd trust, somehow things are different now. other friends were just hi-bye friends: they dont come to stay in my life.

i really hate this feeling. the feeling of feeling lost & having many unanswered questions in my mind which i dont know where/whom to seek answer from.

facing a family crisis: my dad's condition seems to be weird. doctors at the polyclinic couldnt figure out whats wrong with it & he was advised to go to Alexandra Hospital for a thorough checkup. my mom & i are really losing sleep worrying over this matter. my mom was almost in tears while breaking the news to me.

the last experience left my mom on the verge of breaking down, crying every single day, looking pale & not willing to eat anything at all until the news of my dad being able to be discharged was told to her.

i really dont want the same thing to happen again. i cant bear to see my mom go through the same thing. really praying hard that nothing bad will happen. im trying my best not to think of the worst but i cant help it. the last time i thought the worst of it, it came true.

I HATE THIS.

im PMS-ing.

farted @ 11:32 PM


saturday
climb & run event, a total of 1592steps conquered, 2 rounds up & down around all the stairs of all blocks in school. aching calves + perseverance = SHIOK. (:

supported team Pasir Ris Elias down bedok reservoir, gold was taken by them, proud of them. congrats! :D

sunday
training at kallang. paced with team SAFRA, lost to them despite having a full seniors boat compared to half boat of newbies. disappointing? many more rooms to be improved on & i've the faith in the team. (: JIAYOU!

yesterday
land training left me feeling really good with those aching muscles, all thanks to joshua. (: wheel burrow, inverse situps, lunges, top arm raise. exercises which left me with abrasions on palms, aching legs & abs, 100% SHIOKNESS. :D

homed with coach & others at 2215hrs.

today
met up with ___, cooked lunch at his place, FUN. :D two meetings held at school, homed at 2200hrs after dinner at macs. (:

the same things has always been said, but nothing seems to be working out. like what is mentioned,"keep pushing the fault to the others, ever think about yourself?" - really true & i'd definitely keep that in mind.

hoping hard that things will work out after things being talked out. (:

sometimes love comes knocking on the door without even you realising it & im really happy for my 'cousin' from my extended family. :D many loves to you &amp; him! (;

the feeling of drifting away is there. repetition of history? hope not. :/

farted @ 11:55 PM


50 first dates was on tv earlier. a very touching love story with a woman who only have memories of what happened to her a year ago before the accident happened to her & a man who is in love with her, goes all out just to be with her. takes video of what happened every single day to let her watch & recall when she wakes up in the morning, every single day. he makes her fall in love with him over & over again everyday, romantic. (: is there really such a man? i've not met any man who can be like him, or only such man exist in the movies. -.- LOL. oh wells, WHATEVER.

trained at sdba. jogged to east coast park & walked back. head pounding like fuck, pain radiates from temporal to frontal & back to temporal, pain in left knee. whatever shit lah. just annoyed by the pain that im having. commotion at 7-eleven set eyes watching the two young boys getting caught for shoplifting by staff, ECP invaded by us with eyes staring at huge group of people walking/jogging around. lunched with team at raffles city foodcourt, HOME-ED. (:

got scolded for going for training on a public holiday. she thinks that im going out to play instead of training. i dont know how else to convince her & she ignored me the whole day. parents. -.-"

a friend from ex-NPDB asked if NYPDB is going for race is setting me thinking back all over again. another friend from another team said,"training so hard for the race & y'all arent going down? its like a waste of time especially for you guys, a school team." i dont know what else to say but,"gotta respect the coach's decision." i gotta get over it, seriously. -.-

i kept thinking of this person. its like, whenever i close my eyes, i see his face. it was just a hi-bye thing today with him. haha. :X this is getting nowhere & is so wrong.

to nurul:
animal biscuits? :D chickens, cats, dogs, seals, BLAHBLAHBLAH. :D:D:D

to haslinda, jil, kwangli:
get well sooooon. (:

to my classmates:
good luck for tests & practicals! (:

to my 'family':
HAHA. HELLO. >.<

to everyone else:
anything. whatever. :D

farted @ 11:02 PM


my heart felt as if it went down the drain or something when coach said,
"we've come to a decision that we're not going for any races in june."

i held back the tears that were forcing their ways through my eyes. i've self-trained to improve myself as coach always mentioned about fitness test, but i've no idea about the others other than those handfuls whom i've self-trained with/before. the efforts which took to train went down the drain, & flushed down already. i've always been worried that the juniors will one day outshine the seniors & i always believe that day will come. maybe this is the time where the juniors will perform & the seniors taking a step back.

18 people raised up their hands when coach asked about who're the ones who're really interested & really wants to go down for the race. sad to say, i was one of the 18. i've always been looking forward to every single race, but its a different thing this time round.

maybe i should take this time to improve myself more, what is past is the past.
like what nurul always say,
"whatever people say, take it in a positive way."
& i will seriously try.

yesterday
lunched with jil after training with other girls & changlong, being the only guy there. headed for NAVY Open House down Changi Naval Base. cabbed to Expo, took shuttle bus service into the camp.

first stop upon reaching: RSS Kallang
reason: to look for jo
as requested by: MISS JIL TAN :x

everything there is just really cool. the ships, the facilities in the ships, ALL. (: got to explored RSS Kallang & Frigate. miss tan was really clever to wear skirty at the open house where climbing of steep stairs is involved & with so many male species around the place. left the compound at around 1945, a long walk to the shuttle bus service. marcus boy saw me but not calling out to me as he claimed that i recognised him when i dont. the last time he was seen was Regatta Race'06. though the games station were mostly targeted at kids, which i dont understand why, i had my share of fun with jil & changlong behaving like little kids & bimbos.

im just gonna work hard.
really hard.

farted @ 11:38 PM


so im back to land trainings after missing the entire week of land trainings due to STOMACH FLU & DARN DIARRHEA. played games: to test fast reaction, team bonding & knowing each other like the palm of one's hand. objectives met? not really. oh wells, i had my share of fun anyway. bathed, waited for all to leave, HOME. (: munched on oatmeal-raisins cookies & chocochip-cereal cookies. i enjoyed it, the others enjoyed it. :D

fitness test coming soon. gonna train up for it. im sure some juniors can do better than me, especially the ones currently rowing with us now. but some faith gotta be put into myself. (:

cherlin's in the same hs1033 lesson with me! :D yayyy.

wednesday
met up with nala. he was pissing me off, LITERALLY. agreed meeting up at 1300hr at Somerset MRT. he arrived at 1230hr while im on my way. he FLOODED MY PHONE LIKE FUCK when i wasnt there yet. upon reaching, he said he's at TOAPAYOH MRT waiting. like WHAT IN THE WORLD IS HE DOING THERE. so waited another 15mins just for him to get to Somerset. he came, he said "i SMS-ed you telling you im at ToaPayoh MRT. you dint receive? how come you're here."

snapped back, "how many fucking times must i tell you my phone is a bloody phone which freaking jam when multiple SMSes are sent? there's such system call CALLING THE PERSON." he kept quiet, i kept quiet, we walked quietly.

lunched & movie-ed 28 Weeks Later. a total lame show which i think its a total waste of money. thankful for the tickets only costs $6.50, Pirates will be so much better. -.- DUMB MOVIE.


TO NURUL:
this poster really reminds me A LOT about YOUUU.
i bet you're gonna kill me when you see this.
HAHAHA.
but this is SUPER CUTE! ;D
your pineapple jam biscuits will come SOON! (:

{ edit }
currently on the phone with nala NOW. he's really making me feel like PUNCHING HIS FACE. he expects me to reply EVERY SINGLE SMS that he sent, including those that has nothing to reply about. things are not getting better between us. im not gonna dwell on it & im not going to bother. he's acting like the age of his SHOE SIZE.
{ edit }

SCREWED BLOGGER SWALLOWED MY PICTURES. -.-

farted @ 11:48 PM


zac's birthday treat at swensens yesterday. (:

appetizersearthquake!the aftermath :D(:(:& the self-taken group photo with the horrible skills of changlonggreat ice-cream, great time spent with extended 'family'. window shopped at fareast & heeren, met great-ahgong kelvin at NUM heeren, missed him real loads, chatted at the underwear section, HOMEHOME. (:

today
paced with TP girls, sat the pacer seat. ages ago that i've since last sat as the first pair. jane was with me. admit that i was really nervous & i was trying really hard to pull really long strokes like what its required, but my shoulder & back was killing me. nothing much was going right for the sets, the scorching sun was making my vision blurred. nevertheless, i like the morale of second pacing, shouted my lungs out, rowed my heart out for all the sets. pacing is a good exposure. (:

lunched with eve at coffeeshop, daohuay-ed at N&B. window shopped at army market with nala, HOMED. both of us were like walking zombies cos we were really tired. he was working late yesterday & had to wake up for training this morn. but that guy is lucky enough cos Kampong Glam training dont start as early as ours. chatted & fooled around with boonchin along with haslinda, that woman is hilarious that made me laughed real hard till i teared. i love her. (: seriously, if there isnt gonna be any NYPDB alumni, i'll consider joining the NUS alumni ladies. :/ & im considering whether should i buy a paddle or not. :D

finally, knee guards bought today. hopefully it'll help.
iTunes is dumb, really dumb. -.-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZAC & CHRIS. (:

hate is beginning to instill its roots on me for you. (:

farted @ 11:14 PM


stomach flu is driving me PEANUTS! lying on the bed whole day, getting out of bed is enough to make me nauseous & running to the toilet to vomit whatever i ate which includes WATER. i just feel like lying in bed whole day.

went to the doctor yesterday. he said something very funny before asking when is my last menstrual period,"i hope you're not pregnant?" im like,"no. -.-" made a trip down to school to pass nurul clubroom key, cabbed home cos everything was spinning. slept throughout the day before heading out for dinner with my parents, ate a few mouthfuls & vomited upon reaching home.

met up with nala today for a while. headed home to sleep before heading out for dinner with parents. got scolded for not eating much. its a funny thing, i dont get scolded for eating TOO MUCH but i got scolded for eating TOO LITTLE. i've got weird parents, really.

Lower Seletar Reservoir WaterVenture on sunday
this event made the whole team pissed.
VERY pissed.
i had my share of fun anyway.(:

all butts watching the racethe sun was brightmuahhhhh~pompoms!my cousin & my daughter(:i miss training, somehow. i dont know why either.

I MISS EVE,
I MISS ZAC,
I MISS SUFYAN,
I MISS HASLINDA,
I MISS NURUL,
I MISS CHANGLONG,
I MISS MIKE,
I MISS BONG,
I MISS MY DRAGONBOAT FAMILY. ):

im trying to give up. :/

farted @ 10:02 PM